Do you ever feel like you can be a disappointment sometimes? I sure do. I feel I disappoint everyone. My kids by staying inside all day cause its too hot to play or we don't have money to go anywhere. My husband cause he is not getting the attention he needs or wants. My friends too. I think I try so hard to please everybody and worry so much they are going to be disappointed in me cause I did not fulfill them to their liking. I am tired of trying to please my peers and family cause I'm not happy myself. I need to take care of me for a little while and focus on what makes me happy and how I can make things better within my household. I'm really going to try and commit to some things really hard and see if I feel better. I really want to change the way I feel and how I act towards people and treat others as well. I really need this for my family to be stronger. So I know what I am going to do and I hope things get better for me and how I feel inside.
Also I named this a bad day because today was hard. We stayed inside all day and that always make for a very rough day. I think all of us get cabin fever in just hours of being inside. I washed clothes today and of course it goes wrong when one of the 2 little kids put a pen in the dryer. I never noticed it plus I did not look in the dryer to make sure it was empty. Well i know it was empty from clothes but I did not see the pen. So I dried the clothes and when I got them out the had black spots all over them. Ruined some of our good clothes that are now are yard, painting whatever dirty things we need them for. I just hate when things like that happen! Ugh what a day!
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